I am a rabbit in headlights, a strobe-lit goldfish…
My beautiful friend, Belinda, has been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer (stage four) and the cancer has spread to her liver. She’s a month younger than me. We went to school together. She has a small boy, Jude, who is five and equally gorgeous.
I found out yesterday morning. I can’t phone her, can’t text, write a letter, can’t just turn up unannounced – I feel completely paralysed and don’t know what to do. It’s just so shit.
BUT, I have to hope that she will get better. There just isn’t any other way to think about it.